Big week..

There's so much going on this week. I'm involved in a large 8 day event that involves people from around the country. These events are often a test for my state of mind. Two things.

One year the event was extremely difficult because of several days of bad weather.
Through many adjustments, good decision making, and sometimes seat of the pants
reacting, I was able to complete the event on time and to the satisfaction of all the participants. It was tough on me though. Lots of stress, fatigue, more stress.
It was rough.

Ever since then I don't care if it rains or not. Now that I know I can handle things, I don't care what happens. I'm not worried. All it took was making it through one instance of extreme difficulty and I'm no longer concerned with the worse that could go wrong. I'm thinking to myself, gee, all those years I used to worry about inclement weather and what I was going to do, blah, blah, blah, and now, I don't worry about it at all.

I wish I could react that way in other areas of my life, like relationships for instance. Which brings me to item number 2.

There are people I need to work with in this event who do not have the same standards that I have. First, I have to wonder why I'm putting myself in this situation. That aside, the real test is how to deal with these people during the event. There's an old saying that you keep having the same problems until you learn the lesson. I still struggle with learning the lesson.

This year I'm trying my best to be non judgemental. I try to remember they are just like me, trying to do the best they know how. After all, we're connected on so many levels. They are me. Perhaps in judging them, I'm judging myself. I'm going to skip the therapy and go right into being non judgemental. That's the keyword.

So far I've failed every day. That's ok. I can try again tomorrow.